Election 2008? Important to me? Either will be blamed for the inevitable problems we are going to face as a unified country. I know it's supposed to be my "duty" as an American to vote. Honestly, I do not enjoy popularity contests, and at this point in the election, it is a popularity contest.
Some older people are voting because of color. My own father, a very open minded man, admitted that he liked Obama's ideas, but would never vote for him because he is so different. Quite honestly, I am not sure what it is Obama want to "Change", and I would never want McCain's VP choice in a position of power.
It is one of those "if you have nothing nice to say, do not say anything at all" situations for me... or the "do good to you friends, do harm to no one." Well McCain looks about ready to have a heart attack and Obama just feels so unprepared to me.
It is not that I hate either candidate, or that I am some anarchist. Call me selfish, but I really have other things to worry about. I do not really care who our scape goat is. In my opinion, either will do the job to the best of their ability.
Monday, October 20, 2008
Sunday, October 5, 2008
Midterms
Midterms are coming up fast. My brain is leaving a trail of black smoke as I walk from room to room with a music theory book in my left hand as my right hand pretends to play a piano. I guess you could say I'm feeling a bit overwhelmed with everything. I have learned so much already. I did not know anything had stayed in my head with the fast paced classes. I am taking 19 credit hours worth of classes, not including the theater production going on shortly after midterms.
I really want to study and do well, and thankfully some of my classes are waiting until after fall break to give us our midterms. I am making flashcards for Italian 101 and music theory. I am spending extra time in the practice rooms for piano and musicianship. My professor in Ideas and Cultures has given us our essay to write early. All of my professors have provided study guides and I know the professors well enough to trust that what they say will be on the exam will in fact be on the exam.
I do not usually get nervous about exams because it is pretty much a do or die thing for me. I do my best no matter what and either do well or do poorly. I do not stress out about exams after I have taken them.
Unfortunately, I have noticed that as midterms get closer, my room gets cleaner.
I really want to study and do well, and thankfully some of my classes are waiting until after fall break to give us our midterms. I am making flashcards for Italian 101 and music theory. I am spending extra time in the practice rooms for piano and musicianship. My professor in Ideas and Cultures has given us our essay to write early. All of my professors have provided study guides and I know the professors well enough to trust that what they say will be on the exam will in fact be on the exam.
I do not usually get nervous about exams because it is pretty much a do or die thing for me. I do my best no matter what and either do well or do poorly. I do not stress out about exams after I have taken them.
Unfortunately, I have noticed that as midterms get closer, my room gets cleaner.
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
Me
Coming to college has definately changed how I think about myself. Things I did nott know where a problem have jumped in my face. My roommate and I get along well-I just talk in my sleep often and I am sure she's tired of my moodiness. I like having company. My hall mates have almost all been kind and respectful (mostly). I like having a few of them with me at all times, but I do not like parties or loud places. It is sort of like I invite people over to just have them sit with me and watch something or do homework together.
I have learned how dependent I am on others. If you want the full story on why I think so, ask me later-I do not want that posted online. I need to make people happy-that is what makes me happy. There are small things I can do just for me... but I like helping others and entertaining.
I've always been a people pleaser, and that has caused me quite a bit of pain in the past... but I'm getting better I think... slowly but surely.
I have to say that I get along really well with most of my professors. It's like my opinion matters and they hear what I have to say. I can have real conversations with them and most upperclassmen.
I do tend to avoid the seniors-no offense to them, I just don't see them often... and the other freshmen because there is still too much high school drama going on.
I'm a twin fish-I'll be the first to admit I'm indecisive, but goodness people!
I have learned how dependent I am on others. If you want the full story on why I think so, ask me later-I do not want that posted online. I need to make people happy-that is what makes me happy. There are small things I can do just for me... but I like helping others and entertaining.
I've always been a people pleaser, and that has caused me quite a bit of pain in the past... but I'm getting better I think... slowly but surely.
I have to say that I get along really well with most of my professors. It's like my opinion matters and they hear what I have to say. I can have real conversations with them and most upperclassmen.
I do tend to avoid the seniors-no offense to them, I just don't see them often... and the other freshmen because there is still too much high school drama going on.
I'm a twin fish-I'll be the first to admit I'm indecisive, but goodness people!
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
Study Time
Studying... It has to be one of my least favorite activities. Unless of course it's a subject I like. I like to do extra Italian excercises from our text book when I have a spare moment where I'm not doing my actual homework. I don't like to study in areas that are too quiet. Silence is a real bother on my brain. I have to ignore things to focus on other things (This doesn't really explain my ability to multi-task).
Instead of the library's actual separated study areas, I like to find a music player in the music library and listen to an old record while going through my Ideas and Cultures class reading or Italian. If I'm actually working on music though I go to the lobby of the music building. When I have the time to go in there (morning or late evening), the light comes in through the huge class windows. The light is calming and the upperclassmen practice then, so the sound is soothing. I'm able to relax and still able to hear my own notes in my head. I understand some people need complete silence, but I need something like relaxing music to focus on studying. I can keep a steady beat when working on languages or other vocabulary and keeps me from getting too nevrous.
Instead of the library's actual separated study areas, I like to find a music player in the music library and listen to an old record while going through my Ideas and Cultures class reading or Italian. If I'm actually working on music though I go to the lobby of the music building. When I have the time to go in there (morning or late evening), the light comes in through the huge class windows. The light is calming and the upperclassmen practice then, so the sound is soothing. I'm able to relax and still able to hear my own notes in my head. I understand some people need complete silence, but I need something like relaxing music to focus on studying. I can keep a steady beat when working on languages or other vocabulary and keeps me from getting too nevrous.
Sunday, September 14, 2008
Honesty
So I had to sepnd twenty-four hours being completely honest for one of my classes. This was very simple for several reasons. One reason is that I sleep for six to eight hours everyday. Another reason is that I don't like to lie. Lieing requires me to remember extra infortmation, it's a waste of valuable space in my brain.
I decided to do it on Saturday the 13th of September. I woke up at 10:30 am. I spent time with one of my hall mates until noon. She likes to design dresses and draw faries. I helped her set up a deviantart account so she could show off her stuff. I told her, honestly, that her drawings are different, I like them and that she should stop putting them down. I don't like a lot of my own art, but I put it up anyway. Other people can comment and offer advise. Sure, there are some jerks out there, but if she wants to design clothes for real people, she needs to see what they like.
After that, another one of my friends took me to visit her family. They were very friendly and asked me very few questions.
We came back to school and hung out until two in the morning watching animations and movies.
When I came to this school something softened inside me. The girls were so friendly and seemed so trusting that it hasn't been difficult for me to stop telling even the smallest of white lies (No, that dress makes you look stunning!). Even if the option to cheat is staring at me, there is no urge to do it. Honesty is expected of me, and it's easy to be honest in this environment. There is no need to lie if no one else is. I know others don't feel this way and they lie to fit in, but they are just giving themselves a handicap. There's always a chance someone will find them out or that a lie will take a situation too far. Lieing equals trouble, and trouble can sometimes equal the loss of scholarships... It's just not worth it.
By the way... My big sis is awesome.
I decided to do it on Saturday the 13th of September. I woke up at 10:30 am. I spent time with one of my hall mates until noon. She likes to design dresses and draw faries. I helped her set up a deviantart account so she could show off her stuff. I told her, honestly, that her drawings are different, I like them and that she should stop putting them down. I don't like a lot of my own art, but I put it up anyway. Other people can comment and offer advise. Sure, there are some jerks out there, but if she wants to design clothes for real people, she needs to see what they like.
After that, another one of my friends took me to visit her family. They were very friendly and asked me very few questions.
We came back to school and hung out until two in the morning watching animations and movies.
When I came to this school something softened inside me. The girls were so friendly and seemed so trusting that it hasn't been difficult for me to stop telling even the smallest of white lies (No, that dress makes you look stunning!). Even if the option to cheat is staring at me, there is no urge to do it. Honesty is expected of me, and it's easy to be honest in this environment. There is no need to lie if no one else is. I know others don't feel this way and they lie to fit in, but they are just giving themselves a handicap. There's always a chance someone will find them out or that a lie will take a situation too far. Lieing equals trouble, and trouble can sometimes equal the loss of scholarships... It's just not worth it.
By the way... My big sis is awesome.
Sunday, September 7, 2008
Getting Involved
Being in college, I have learned that I am not allowed to be antisocial. There was an showing of different organizations here and a chance to sign up. I signed up for Ally, a group of support for any kind of sexuality. I also signed up for the theater group, because I have always wanted to be in theater. Because of my major, I am in the freshmen choir.
It is not that I want to be antisocial. I am just a very busy person, what with 19 credit hours and all. I still need a little me time, but I only get that when I take a shower. Everyone here is very nice and I do not mind spending time with them. I just get drained when I am around people too much. It is probably due to my performing nature. I always feel that I need to entertain those around me. I will quite down some as the semester goes on. For now I just hope my teachers can bear with me. I really do not mean to interupt.
As for working with clubs familiar to me, I do not believe I helped out too much with my high school's sexuality support group. Odd as it sounds, people actually believe such clubs are set up so teens can just have sex more. This is, of course, not the case. Teens tend to trust those their own age better than adults. If the teens need a support group for feelings they can't control, they deserve it. I feel very strongly about supporting emotions.
The theater club... well... I explained that already.
It is not that I want to be antisocial. I am just a very busy person, what with 19 credit hours and all. I still need a little me time, but I only get that when I take a shower. Everyone here is very nice and I do not mind spending time with them. I just get drained when I am around people too much. It is probably due to my performing nature. I always feel that I need to entertain those around me. I will quite down some as the semester goes on. For now I just hope my teachers can bear with me. I really do not mean to interupt.
As for working with clubs familiar to me, I do not believe I helped out too much with my high school's sexuality support group. Odd as it sounds, people actually believe such clubs are set up so teens can just have sex more. This is, of course, not the case. Teens tend to trust those their own age better than adults. If the teens need a support group for feelings they can't control, they deserve it. I feel very strongly about supporting emotions.
The theater club... well... I explained that already.
Tuesday, September 2, 2008
Starting a New Life
I just started college. I have made sure to keep myself busy so far to avoid the "blah" bug.
My professors have been easy on us so far, letting us adjust a little to college life. I am also seeing a councelor to try and get my feelings in order. I expect to see her for the rest of this year, if not for the rest of my college career.
As for this semester, I am signed up for nineteen credit hours. This does not include the extra piano practice three hours a week. I have discovered that with a college like this one, you also have to be involved in "sister" activities. I keep running into the issue of whether I should eat, sleep, study, or avoid being the only antisocial girl here. I very much want to be in the play this semester, but those auditions are tonight. I see myself being very busy for the next few months.
A lot of the young women here are having trouble getting themselves up in the morning, as this is the first time that has been up to them. I've woken myself up for school since my freshman year in high school. The only time I'm late for class is when my teachers keep me over and my next class is clear across campus.
Food seems to be an issue too. I have food in my dorm because I know I do not always have time to get to the cafiteria in time for a meal.
Since I'm on food, let me address the freshman fifteen... yeah... I don't care about it whatsoever. I've gained five pounds so far, and it's muscle from running to class and up stairs to go to bed at night.
So this semester I expect to be difficult, but I'll get through it. I don't have to get used to all the things these other girls complain about. I miss my family, but I can talk to them still. I don't like having too much down time.
I've got to avoid the "blah" feeling.
-Twinfish doing homework
My professors have been easy on us so far, letting us adjust a little to college life. I am also seeing a councelor to try and get my feelings in order. I expect to see her for the rest of this year, if not for the rest of my college career.
As for this semester, I am signed up for nineteen credit hours. This does not include the extra piano practice three hours a week. I have discovered that with a college like this one, you also have to be involved in "sister" activities. I keep running into the issue of whether I should eat, sleep, study, or avoid being the only antisocial girl here. I very much want to be in the play this semester, but those auditions are tonight. I see myself being very busy for the next few months.
A lot of the young women here are having trouble getting themselves up in the morning, as this is the first time that has been up to them. I've woken myself up for school since my freshman year in high school. The only time I'm late for class is when my teachers keep me over and my next class is clear across campus.
Food seems to be an issue too. I have food in my dorm because I know I do not always have time to get to the cafiteria in time for a meal.
Since I'm on food, let me address the freshman fifteen... yeah... I don't care about it whatsoever. I've gained five pounds so far, and it's muscle from running to class and up stairs to go to bed at night.
So this semester I expect to be difficult, but I'll get through it. I don't have to get used to all the things these other girls complain about. I miss my family, but I can talk to them still. I don't like having too much down time.
I've got to avoid the "blah" feeling.
-Twinfish doing homework
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